human nature!

I don’t understand why we are looking for something that we don’t possess. Once we do possess, we somehow lost the interest and the desire we had once before. Does this mean, all we want is the suffer that we gain from the pursuit. haha,, gain a suffer? if that is also a type of ‘gain’, yes, i do think so.

We may put it aside once we have achieved. Human nature!! 

I am yawning now, I guess I could sleep now!!

There is something so strange about people’s body.

I was rather sleepy watching x factor (i find i lost huge enthusiasm this year), therefore i fell asleep shortly after the show was finished before a 007 film started,  it was so nice sleep. I slept,, I slept,,, 

I was waken up by my brain, i gave myself an order that I need to get up and brush my teeth before sleep again.. So I did. In fact, i washed my face too. 

When I was back to bed again, I just couldnot sleep again. My brain was so clear again. I turned left side, I turned right side, I slept on my back, I slept face down, I was regretting my earlier sleep contributed to my failing to sleep this time. Oh well….Life!  I turned on tv again, to my surprise, james bond was still there!! not only james bond, there was a bond girl too.. I also watched another couple of documentary. Somehow made me a little bit more knowledgeable than one hour ago turning every side to sleep. 

Great!! I am yawning now, I guess I could sleep now!! Good night!

or, shall I also would like to have one?

Always wanted to be a different person!! Indeed everyone is different, just like the leaves on the tree. Of course, human are stronger than the leaves which would be blown easily away by a wind who carelessly blow!! I guess the wind didnot mean it, he just was out for a walk with his new girlfriend, or maybe he was kissing his girlfriend.. It was so gentle, so romantic, so,,ehmm.. windy.. hahaha..  then, the leaves falling down because of that casual kiss, or casual something else..

 

Story always goes on without too much careful thinking, it is the same case as it is in our life, I mean, sometimes. People are driven by desire, by lust, they don’t care about consequences, they don’t care about the outcome, leave it for tomorrow!! Tomorrow may be rainy, as well as stormy, but at least, we are enjoying today’s sunny weather. Who should worry too much, it is Scotland! Weather changes hourly like a girl!! Oh, Edinburgh Festival!!! Looking at people walking down in royal mile like fish, the scenery excites me a lot, particularly by the people who make wonderful bloons!!! Clever hands, and funny jokes!! I guess that is all life is about!! I mean, have some fun when you still have the ability to sense them!! Love the one that you care!! Don’t be shy to speak out!! But why we just can’t do it? Why are we so mean when comes to expressing ourselves? Any harm? I guess it is sad part of life. But unfortunately we can’t avoid this, that is the biggest shame in our life. But maybe human always think too much, if not, we could have a nice kiss like the wind, forgetting about blowing the leaves away on the tree, at least, he knows he could make the other leaves sing, cheering for the beautiful summer which comes only once a year!!

 

Still want to be a different person, but am I really making any effort? Why can’t I just forget about something on my mind and being a real self? Is it just so hard, why there are things bother me so much. Why I never just want to sit down and put myself into the books, forgetting about the outside world. Or, maybe I like to listen to the leaves singing, when the wind passing by with his girlfriend, I can sense that loving and unforgettable kiss, I can sense the wind’s heart beating, or, shall I also would like to have one? errhh, who is that?

 

Good or Bad, Having a strong mind is most important!!

Life is full of adventures,

Be grateful to all the stories happened to you,

Be careful about all your moves,

Think twice before you make a decision,

Don’t be sorry for a mistake,

Do something to make it up,

Smile,

Whatever has happened,

Remember,

There is always a solution,

Good or Bad,

Having a strong mind is most important,

Life is full of unexpected adventures.

Good or Bad,

Having a strong mind is most important!!

Remember your umbrella

Empty brain,

Lazy body,

Windy outside,

Too much tv,

Can’t be bothered,

Not trying hard to love,

Raining again,

Broken dreams,

Too wise,

Walking slowly,

Singing awfully,

Dancing less and less,

Getting more and more confused,

Couldn’t care less,

Losing sharpness,

Losing heart,

Losing enthusiasm,

Losing time,

Losing youth,

 

Room is a mess,

Hair is a mess,

Life is a mess,

Laugh is a mess,

Tear is non-existent,

Teeth are ok,

but dreaming the tooth falling out the third time, oops, so wierd, not fair!!

Friends are busy,

Lover is too sweet,

Only make you more lonely,

Happiness, in the end of day, is none of other people’s business,

It is all about how you live your life!!

Happiness, is the way you feel your life, the satisfaction that you gain through your life, your friends and family, you career. Have you all figured it out? Or just live your life without any serious self-displine? If that is a way to gain happiness, then, fair enough.. If that is the case, why should I ever be bothered to "think about it" ? Oh well, here you go!!

 

Get up,

Work harder,

Laugh louder,

Walk faster,

Less tv,

More books,

Less grampy,

More tennis,

Less texts,

More phone calls,

Love sincerely,

Move more efficiently,

Smile more, but watch out the winkles,

Remember your umbrella,

Don’t buy too many, when it rains and catch you in the rain,

Be more considerate,

Less moaning,

 

Sleep well, keep laptop away now.

Hey baby, sweet dream!!

 

 

I become really really dark!!

"来又如风,离又如风,或世事通通不过一场梦, 人在途中,人在时空, 相识也许不过擦过梦中.

来又如风,离又如风,或我亦不该这般心痛, 但我不过是人非梦, 总有些真笑亦有真痛."

always like Fei Wang’s this song, not only for the purpose of practising cantonese, but it is really touching when you thinking about the lyrics.

 

It has been many sunny days now, it is always lovely to see nice hot days in Scotland. Had sun bath in Portbello beach this afternoon, which was fun!! My dark skin allows me stay in the sun for long without get burnt, as a result, I become really really dark!!

 

 

 

 

But who cares.

I always believe people are stronger than they are thought to be.

 

I am a weak person, I have no determination, I need to be centre of attention, I want to get what I desire. All those horrible characters make life hard for me. Fortunately, thank God, I forget about bad things quickly enough so that I can live up to today. Often, I appear to be happy and cheerful although down in the bottom of my heart, I am inconfident, timid, vulnerable, sensitive, depressed person. I am not sure which is real me, and which side can really make me feel more true, more honest towards life. I don’t like to show my weakness, but I can’t hide that either, at least to myself and the ones I love. The consequence of that is, I don’t know the true me, the real person that appears to be like when the mask is taken off. But who cares.

 

I believe nothing, and I don’t think I am wise enough to figure out what is something that people need to believe in life, well, I mean, that people really need to believe. But who cares.

 

There are two things that really shocked me this week. One is, something so ridiculous happened to me without my realisation many years ago, somehow I still live in a dream, until this week. It is really something that I believe may only happen in the movies. Another thing was a girl that I saw today, which inspired me so so much that I suddenly realised how lucky I am to be in this world, enjoying my health and happiness, and how silly of people whoever complaining too much about their life.

 

All these years life in Scotland has not really changed anything big of me, sadly enough, I havenot really learnt much about life either, because I am just too stubborn to change a thing, however, I have understood, in my opinion, how life can be like. I can try to be more tolerant with people, learning forgiving and forgetting, although it is so bloody hard. It is a way to protect myself as well I believe.

 

At last, I can announce that I learnt how to be strong, yes, that is so important. Live your life for yourself, drop something, you will pick up something nicer. Take control!! and, take care!!